Blessed.

When I see this smile, I experience this indescribable warmth in my heart. It doesn't matter that I've been smiling back at this boy for weeks. Each smile gets me. I could literally cry looking at his sweet face. I can see a little of me in his eyes... I can see a little of his daddy in that grin. I pray that I can be the kind of mother he deserves. I've only got one shot. I never want to let him down.


This little girl... all I want to do is give her the world, protect her from every hurt and every fear. I want to preserve this carefree innocence. I want to keep her safe in our little world where everything is okay, where happiness is found in the simple moments, where there is unconditional love, where fairies might just exist and fairytales do come true... Oh, the things you don't know you'll feel until you're watching your own baby grow...


Some days I feel doubt creep in... Am I doing it all right? I don't take this raising people thing lightly and I can be hard on myself when the days don't always go as planned, but most days I do think I'm doing okay...

All I know for sure is that I'm overwhelmingly thankful and I pray every day for the guidance I need to be the best I can be... for them.

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  1. CarlySeptember 20, 2011 at 11:38 PM

    They are precious! I know how you feel about wanting to be the best mom possible. I am sure that you are a wonderful mommy!

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  2. Confessions From A Work-At-Home MomSeptember 21, 2011 at 8:38 AM

    Awww, you're doing a GREAT job! By the way, I now take back what I said about Ethan reminding me of Gracie as a baby -- in today's picture he looks SOOOO much like Sean it's crazy! And Gracie is all Mommy :) It's so cute you not only have one of each, but that each child favors a differentn parent.

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  3. Platinum RoseSeptember 26, 2011 at 5:06 PM

    You're doing an awesome job, and should be very proud of your role as Mom! You are raising two wonderful little people, that will someday be wonderful adults thanks to your guidance and support!

    I love spending time with your family, not only just you, because I want some of your kids' behaviors to rub off on my own! It's funny how once you have a kid, you not only pick your friends for yourself, but you also observe your friends based on their parenting, and how their children are (if they have any children, that is). Seeing you as a Mom, and not as just MY friend, reinforced that you are definitely someone I want to hang around, either just the two of us, or with our kids involved too!

    (I'm not sure what I said makes any sense....)

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